Meeting a spiritual superior is unmistakable. It has a very distinct taste. It also has a most dramatic effect upon one's psyche. It is intense although not always outward. Intangible, elusive and at times inexplicable... that is the experience of a seeker. It awakens something within and one is confronted with the inevitability of letting go of who you think you are.
Nothing makes sense in the way that one used to know, but one perseveres guided by an inner rudder that seems to know exactly where to go and what to do. One then gives into this "flow."
I met such a spiritual superior and the moment we met, it was like we had known each other all our lives, longer than that it even seemed. In his own words, he prepares people by "reorienting" them towards God. Subhana'Llah.
I began learning how to be a murid, an aspirant, for me that was the beginning of an inner life...without wishing to scare or frighten people, but in all sincerity in order to love God, one needs to be ready for one's love to be tested...in every inconceivable way. It appeared outwardly so chaotic at first, my life gone out of control, everything seemed to be against me and all the answers I sought were wrong. It made no sense, but something was happening inwardly...as if all the muck of my life had been brought to the surface. And for the first time in my life, I was completely...and utterly...alone. Constricted and alone, quite honestly, entertaining thoughts of suicide. This I kid you not.
As with everything, it passes. One becomes attuned to God in all forms. All things that happen to you, will you recognize Him when he comes to you? It is perhaps easier to see God in all the beautiful things around us, but what if He came to you in the form of something you do not like. Would you still recognize Him? Welcome Him? This is basically where I stand now. Learning to see Him in every form, however way He comes to me. In the events that I face and in the people interact with.
Life is but a succession of moments...to live (truly live) each one is to succeed.
This has been my life for the last four years. And I couldn't have done it without a guide. They say that if you do not have a guide on this journey, your guide will be shaytan. This guide continues to be a brother to me as well as a guide on my wanderings and I am full of love and gratitude for God's Grace that flows through him to shine a light upon my darkness. Like siblings we will always be, not always agreeing but accepting each other's differences; but more importantly, being there for each other.
God often gives in our earthly life a brother-soul, who embellishes the Path. And who, in this or that respect, reconciles us with the ups and downs of life. ~Frithjof Schuon~
This blog is dedicated to my brother and my guide :)
Love ya, bro!
