Jesus on the lean donkey

Jesus on the lean donkey,
this is an emblem of how the rational intellect
should control the animal soul.
                                                Let your spirit 
be strong like Jesus.
                               If that part of you becomes weak,
then the worn-out donkey grows into a dragon.

Be grateful when what seems unkind
comes from a wise person.
                                         Once a holy man,
riding his donkey, saw a snake crawling into
a sleep man's mouth! He hurried, but he couldn't
prevent it. He hit the man several blows with his club.

The man woke terrified and ran beneath an apple tree
with many rotten apples on the ground.
                                                              "Eat!
You miserable wretch! Eat."
                                           "Why are you doing this to me?"
"Eat more, you fool."
                                "I've never seen you before!
Who are you? Do you have some inner quarrel with my soul?"

The wise man kept forcing him to eat, and then he ran him.
For hours he whipped the poor man and made him run.
Finally, at nightfall, full of rotten apples,
fatigued, bleeding, he fell
                                         and vomited everything,
the good and the bad, the apples and the snake.

When he saw the snake
come out of himself, he fell on his knees
before the assailant.
                                "Are you Gabriel? Are you God?
I bless the moment you first noticed me. I was dead
and didn't know it. You've given me new life.
Everything I've said to you was stupid!
I didn't know."
                      "If I had explained what I was doing, you might have panicked and died of fear.
Muhammad said,
                         "If I described the enemy that lives 
inside men, even the most courageous of you would be paralyzed. 
No one would go out, or do any work. No one would pray or fast,
and all power to change would fade
from human beings."
                               so I kept quiet
while I was beating you, that like David
I might shape iron, so that, impossibly
I might put feathers back into a bird's wing.

God's silence is necessary, because of humankind's
faintheartedness. If I had told you about the snake,
you wouldn't have been able to eat, and if
you hadn't eaten, you wouldn't have vomited.

I saw your condition and drove my donkey hard
into the middle of it, saying always under my breath,
"Lord, make it easy on him." I wasn't permitted
to tell you, and I wasn't permitted to stop
beating you!"
                     The healed man, still kneeling,
"I have no way to thank you for the quickness
of your wisdom and the strength
of your guidance.
                          God will thank you."

~Rumi~

From one hand, one could view this cruel and unnecessary; but think again, had the wise man not done what he had done, would the man have eaten the rotten apples so that he would vomit? Cruel to be kind. "God's silence is necessary."                  

Excerpt from The Essential Rumi translated by Coleman Barks

I need your grace to remind me of His Grace

Meeting a spiritual superior is unmistakable. It has a very distinct taste. It also has a most dramatic effect upon one's psyche. It is intense although not always outward. Intangible, elusive and at times inexplicable... that is the experience of a seeker.  It awakens something within and one is confronted with the inevitability of letting go of who you think you are.

Nothing makes sense in the way that one used to know, but one perseveres guided by an inner rudder that seems to know exactly where to go and what to do. One then gives into this "flow."

I met such a spiritual superior and the moment we met, it was like we had known each other all our lives, longer than that it even seemed. In his own words, he prepares people by "reorienting" them towards God. Subhana'Llah. 

I began learning how to be a murid, an aspirant, for me that was the beginning of an inner life...without wishing to scare or frighten people, but in all sincerity in order to love God, one needs to be ready for one's love to be tested...in every inconceivable way. It appeared outwardly so chaotic at first, my life gone out of control, everything seemed to be against me and all the answers I sought were wrong. It made no sense, but something was happening inwardly...as if all the muck of my life had been brought to the surface. And for the first time in my life, I was completely...and utterly...alone. Constricted and alone, quite honestly, entertaining thoughts of suicide. This I kid you not. 

As with everything, it passes. One becomes attuned to God in all forms. All things that happen to you, will you recognize Him when he comes to you? It is perhaps easier to see God in all the beautiful things around us, but what if He came to you in the form of something you do not like. Would you still recognize Him? Welcome Him? This is basically where I stand now. Learning to see Him in every form, however way He comes to me. In the events that I face and in the people interact with.

Life is but a succession of moments...to live (truly live) each one is to succeed.

This has been my life for the last four years. And I couldn't have done it without a guide. They say that if you do not have a guide on this journey, your guide will be shaytan. This guide continues to be a brother to me as well as a guide on my wanderings and I am full of love and gratitude for God's Grace that flows through him to shine a light upon my darkness. Like siblings we will always be, not always agreeing but accepting each other's differences; but more importantly, being there for each other.


God often gives in our earthly life a brother-soul, who embellishes the Path. And who, in this or that respect, reconciles us with the ups and downs of life. ~Frithjof Schuon~

This blog is dedicated to my brother and my guide :)

Love ya, bro!

Being in His Presence is the best gift all

After almost 4 years of intense study of Islamic Mysticism and Philosophy, I honestly didn't know what I was going to do. What in the world was I thinking? At the pinnacle of my career, I graciously made my exit, before I expired. Inspired by one who turned my life around. He was both a teacher and  abrother, and I never looked back after that.


With no formal training in this field, I endeavored and worked harder than most at what felt like constantly swimming upstream. I had to learn technical terms, and studied Arabic (I still am, by the way), studying texts and manuscripts guiding people to rid themselves of themselves.
Most people move towards the world and away from God, where would I fit in? How could I come back to the working world with everything that I knew. The whole idea of Sufism is the death of the false self (nafs) and yet the world I was returning to, seemed to be lived in order to fulfill desires. The very desires I was trained to extinguish.
There were some really grim moments when I didn't want to talk to people and experienced such despair, such misery. But I was surrounded by many who had tread the path before me, I began, little by little, to understand and to live in this world, but not of it. (to borrow the words of Isa, (as).

And as it turns out, I really didn't have to do anything. The way just made itself apparent. No longer driven by the superficial desires of the world, I pursued God. Al-hamdu li'Llah :)

To every question that arises in the heart of the mystic, the answers unfold in the life before him.

Hazrat Inayat Khan

I should've had more faith in Him. Astaghfirullah.
Today, I continue to counsel and motivate my fellow man, education is still a passion, but less of myself is present.
Being in His Presence is the best gift all...everything else just "falls into place." 

The Pursuit of Happiness: Do we really know what we are looking for?

The Pursuit of Happiness

Do we really know what we are looking for?

Bismi’Llahir-Rahimir-Rahim

As-Salaamu ‘Alaykum wr wb

Whether you reading this for the first time or you happened to be present at my recent talk with Talisman Energy on August 9^th, I hope you may find this article useful, both professionally and personally.

What is happiness?

The most useful definition—and it's one agreed upon by neuroscientists, psychiatrists, behavioral economists, positive psychologists, Philosophers as well as religion—is more like satisfied or content than "happy" in its strict bursting-with-glee sense. It has depth and deliberation to it. It encompasses living a meaningful life, utilizing your gifts and your time, living with thought and purpose.

Most often happiness is a concept or word that we attach to “things,” things we desire, things we wish for. This ensures the road to unhappiness.

All things in the world perish, save His Face, Magnificent and Glorified. Thus says the Holy Quran. [1]

As Muslims, we profess to believe that the Vision of God is the summit of human felicity, because it is so stated in the Law; but with many this is just lip-service which arouses no emotion in their hearts.

Conventionally, the pursuit of happiness means no more than the pursuit of wealth and status as embodied in a mansion, a Lexus, and membership in a country club.  All of these things are wonderful to have, but happiness brought about by things, are temporary. They do not last. Do they?

I invite all of you to search inside yourselves and ask do you really know what you are looking for? It is most important that you differentiate the things you desire such wealth, health etc, and true, ultimate happiness. So, where do we go for answers?

The answers that I have brought with me today, are from the past. A rich  history of Islamic Philosophy and Mysticism (Tasawwuuf) that I have been privileged to study.  As a professor of Islamic jurisprudence in Baghdad 's Nizamiyyah College, Al-Ghazzali was considered one of the leading minds of his day. All his life he had aimed to know 'the deep reality of things', and his mental powers had led him to eminence. He was bestowed with the title of the “Proof of Islam.”

Imam Ghazzali was asked, “Does money upset the hearts of learned men?”
He answered, "…men whose hearts are changed by money are not learned''

The Alchemy of Happiness – Al-Kimia al- Sa'āda[2]

Sa'āda (happiness) is a central concept in Islamic philosophy used to describe the highest aim of human striving.

• Sa'āda is considered to be part of the "ultimate happiness", namely that of the hereafter.
• Only when a human being has liberated his/her soul completely form its corporal existence, and arrives at what is called "active intellect".
• Al-Ghazali believed in practical-ethical perfection and that by exercising his God-given capacity for reason man must be drawn to the spiritual alchemy that transforms the soul from worldliness to complete devotion to God.
• This alone, he believed could produce ultimate happiness.
• Ghazālī's teachings were to help man to live a life in accordance with the sacred law, and by doing so gain a deeper understanding of its meaning on the day of Judgement

Kimiā (Alchemy) is an applied and mystical science that has been studied for centuries.

• In its essence, Kimiā represents a complete conception of the universe and relations between earthly beings and the cosmos. 
• Religious philosophers emphasized its importance as a religious discipline.
• Due to its spiritual dimensions Kimiā is considered the noblest of all occult sciences (i.e. astrology and various kinds of magic).
• Ghazali was himself a believer that everything on Earth is a manifestation of God’s spirit, thus everything belongs to kimiā.

The first four chapters follow the hadiths, or sayings of Muhammad, in making a case for the impossibility of true happiness without a close relationship to God.

It has for nine centuries remained one of the great inspirational tracts of Islam.

Ghazzali begins the book by stating the four elements in the metamorphosis that turns an average person 'from an animal into an angel'. They include:

•         Knowledge of self

•         Knowledge of God

•         Knowledge of the world as it really is

•         Knowledge of the next world as it really is

I have included 2 of these chapters here for this discussion.

Knowledge of self

• Ghazzali draws attention to the simple fact that until we know something about ourselves we cannot fulfill our potential.
• The key to knowledge of the self is the heart - not the physical heart but the one given us by God, which 'has come into this world as a traveler visits a foreign country.and will presently return to its native land'.
• To lose our heart in the things and concerns of this world is to forget our real cosmic origins, whereas knowledge of the heart as given by God provides a true awareness of who we are as God created us.

Knowledge of God

• Ghazzali refers to a line in the Koran: "Does it not occur to man that there was a time when he was nothing?" Yet he notes that many refuse to look for the real cause that brought them into creation.
• He likens a physicist to an ant crawling across a piece of paper which, seeing letters being written on to it, believes they are the work of a pen alone.
• A person suffering from depression will be told a different cause for his ailment, depending on who he sees; the physician and the astrologer will find different causes. It does not occur to them that God may have given the man the illness for a reason, and caused the conditions that led to his dissatisfaction with the normal pleasures with life, in the hope that it would draw him closer to God. There is always a real cause behind the apparent ones, and that real cause is God's.

But the larger message of The Alchemy of Happiness, whether you are Muslim or not, is that genuine happiness comes from the knowledge that we are creations of God, and have therefore been made for a purpose. Peace comes from knowing that we are merely 'travelers in a foreign land', and will before long return to an eternal paradise.

Such is the “Alchemy of Happiness" that Al-Ghazzali brewed up for us and served it in a small teacup, hot, steaming, and refreshing of our souls, if we but take the cup into our hands and drink deeply.

I would like to take this opportunity to share with you some lessons from my own beloved teacher.  May Allah be pleased with him.

• God has opened a gate in the middle of creation, and this gate of the world towards God is man.
• This opening is God’s invitation to look towards Him, to tend towards Him, to persevere with regard to Him and to return to Him. (ilayhi raji’un)
• And this enables us to understand why the gate shuts at death when it has been scorned during life;
• for to be man (insan) means nothing other than looking by looking beyond (this world) and to pass through the gate.
• The notion of Hell becomes perfectly clear when we think how senseless it is—and what a waste and a suicide—to slip through the human state without being truly man.

Subhana Rabbika Rabbi’l-izzati ‘amma yasifuna wa salamun ‘ala’l-mursalin wa’l-hamdu li’Llahi Rabbi’l-alamin.

Was-Salaam and Thank you.

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[1] Surah Ar-Rahman, The Quran Translated, Marmaduke Pickthall

[2] The Alchemy of Happiness by Imam Ghazzali, translated into English by CLAUD FIELD, [1909]

Sohbet

Spiritual conversation is divine light. It brings us close together and melts us in unity. 

~Sufi Aphorism~ 

Sohbet is the connecting point of all other activities: individual practice, group remembrance, music, study, social life, ethics. 

~Kabir Helminski~

Sohbet is the primary practice of certain Sufi groups, where conversation with "a mature one" becomes the means of sharing the state of attainment.

But more importantly, it is an exchange between people like no other way of communicating. Exchange is more than just words, something happens among the participants that is "felt" rather heard, inviting us to listen deeply to each other.  A practice that will greatly enhance our ability to "hear" the Beloved.

Subhana'Llah

Moments of Silence

It is only in this silence that we can listen for God.

"Surely there is a Reminder in that for whoever has a heart, or listens attentively, while he is witnessing.."

Sura Qaf, 50:37

Ibn al-'Arabi prescribes moments of silence during ritual prayer precisely for "listening for God."

He says: So it is obligatory for the servant, when he has finished reciting the verse (in prayer), to listen attentively, while he is witnessing. Therefore the person praying becomes silent, so that he can see what God is saying to him concerning that, as is only the spiritually appropriate behavior (adab) with God. 

That is how this matter remains between the listener and the One speaking to him, so that the listener might gain benefit (from that silent pure receiving in prayer). For you must know that kings do not take a person without proper adab to sit with them, nor to converse with them at night, not to be their intimate companion.

Excerpt from the Futuhat al-Makkiyyah Chapter VI, 217-219, 

as translated by James Winston Morris, Reflective Heart.

Technology of the Heart: Stay close to any sounds | sohbet is deep listenin...: 1. Stay close to any sounds that make you glad you are alive. Everything in this world is helplessly reeling. An invisible wake was created ...

Prayer

Then a priestess said, Speak to us of Prayer.And he answered, saying:You pray in your distress and in your need; would that you might pray also in the fullness of your joy and in your days of abundance.

For what is prayer but the expansion of yourself into the living ether?And if it is your comfort to pour your darkness into space, it is for your delight to pour forth the dawning of your heart.And if you cannot but weep when your soul summons you to prayer, she should spur you again and yet again, though weeping, until you shall come laughing.When you pray you rise to meet in the air those who are praying at that very hour, and whom save in prayer you may not meet.Therefore let your visit to that temple invisible be for naught but ecstasy and sweet communion.For if you should enter the temple for no other purpose than asking you shall not receive:And if you should enter into it to humble yourself you shall not be lifted:Or even if you should enter into it to beg for the good of others you shall not be heard.It is enough that you enter the temple invisible.

I cannot teach you how to pray in words.God listens not to your words save when He Himself utters them through your lips.And I cannot teach you the prayer of the seas and the forests and the mountains.But you who are born of the mountains and the forests and the seas can find their prayer in your heart,And if you but listen in the stillness of the night you shall hear them saying in silence,"Our God, who art our winged self, it is thy will in us that willeth.It is thy desire in us that desireth.It is thy urge in us that would turn our nights, which are thine, into days which are thine also.We cannot ask thee for aught, for thou knowest our needs before they are born in us:Thou art our need; and in giving us more of thyself thou givest us all.

By Kahlil Gibran

The Prophet

http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/ASIN/0679440674

Remembrance and Meditation

Dhikr and muraqaba (meditation) are two interrelated practices that produce an experience of timelessness free of the change and talwin (variegation) which are the effect of time. This experience is described by the following verses of Rumi's Mathnavi (III, 2072-2076):

At the time when in the company of that selected group I began to meditate,
Stepping out of myself,
The soul got rid of all time that turns youth into age.
All change arouses out of time:
He who gets rid of time gets rid of change.
Oh, my heart, for a while be out of time, get rid of change.
Oh, my heart, for a while be out of time to be free from "how" and "why."
Time does not know the nature of Timelessness,
Because only Wonder can lead to it.

Repeated experience of the timeless and spaceless dimensions through dhikr develops a realization, intrinsic to any mystical experience, that there exist more planes or spheres of being than the ordinary mind can recognize. Such an awareness explains why in the literature of most mystical traditions one finds an abundance of visions and poetic descriptions of the ascent of the soul through heavenly spheres, or its descent into the depth of the underworld. These visions and images reflect the wonder and awe with which mystics have experienced the timeless travel through the manifold planes of existence.

and yet...it leaves behind no cognitive traces...


Subhana'Llah




Tuesday, September 20, 2011 at 8:37am
SOURCE: The Taste of Hidden Things by Sara Sviri pages 129-131

Doorway

In my dreams, for many years now there has been an open doorway. Every dream, it’s the same door revealing many truths left unexpressed ‘til now. Where in my aloneness I can see what has always been there. The door ajar, entices me to explore the splendors beyond the stone gray wall. Dare I go? Lest I lose myself out there in a strange and unknown world? I catch whiffs of scents and hear sounds muffled in the distance, I do not recognize them but the door beckons me, ’Come hither, child.’ In each dream, I end up walking past this threshold; I wander its streets, long and narrow…cobblestone paths caressing my bare feet. I encounter familiar faces, yet I do not know them. They radiate smiles and a light glows from their chests. They speak without words, yet I understand. They speak of love and I feel a joy that enwraps me like a blanket. A white wool blanket, it’s so soft, so fluffy and so comforting. I wander further, caressing my white wool blanket…I catch the scent of the sea…alluring…a gentle breeze on my face…there it is…in all Its Magnificence. The Endless Sea, waves touching the shore…the moon so bright, illuminating this vision before me. Someone calls my name from behind me, there is no one there, but the open doorway awaits me. I kiss the air that I breathe and slowly make my way back to the doorway.


I have always thought that door led to the world outside; instead I find that it leads to the world within.



Jagakarsa, Jakarta.
September 24, 2011

In your eyes...

When our eyes met, I swear I saw the sun in his eyes. They were lit up like golden flares of sunlight that shone on the horizon of my heart. In that instant, time stood perfectly still as I gazed at eternity in his eyes.

In your eyes, I am complete. Your eyes.

~Peter Gabriel~

Soul Vacation

After a two year hiatus from the world of blogging, a soul vacation of sorts, I am back. I had to lose my mind to find my way home. This is the moment that I became aware of my own spiritual birth. (pic above)

When we come to this world, this is our physical birth. Seemingly helpless and at the mercy of those who love and care for us. This is how we are born into the world. This state of pure surrender is how we must return. It is in this state that we are connected to all things in the Universe, which is none other than Him. And our memories of Him, so fresh. Have you ever wondered why babies smile? They see His Face. Or why we come into this world crying? We move into this physical space, far from Him, but not separate.

As we live our lives, and begin to use the word "I" to identify ourselves, this marks our psychological birth. The kingdom of "I". As we interact with the world of phenomenon, we lose sight, or rather, forget our connection to that Universe, which was all we knew at birth. Most people spend all their lives here, never budging. Remaining in the realm of "I".

A third phase of life is a person's spiritual birth. When we become painfully aware that we are not who we think we are, and the things we see aren't as they seem to us. After a period of disorientation, a person can come to feel or witness Reality...and that nothing, nothing is outside of Him. This state requires that we (our souls) die unto ourselves in order that we may live in Him. The soul in sufi tradition is our ego and its desires. 

For seekers the arena where the mystical states are tasted and where the inner layers unfold is here; the time in which it takes place is now. As-sufi ibnu waqtihi, in Arabic. This is the realization. A child of time, or of the moment. To know this is to know that we already in the bosom of Eternity. 

Subhana Rabbika Rabbi'l-izzati'amma yasifuna wa salamun 'ala'l-mursalin 

wa'l-hamdu li'Llahi Rabbi'l-alamin.

I dedicate this blog to all whom are seeking this spiritual birth, whatever your religious tradition may be. All are welcome.

Special thanks to my spiritual brothers and sisters, who by igniting their light, I became aware. And to the teacher whom I have never met, but I know. :)

This is me if there is a me :) today...

"So glorify the name of your Tremendous Lord." 

[al-Qur'an, 69:52]